I know I haven't posted in awhile, but here I am.
I just wanted to say I've been on a new exercise plan. I did research into strength training and was convinced to do it over a lot of cardio. It's been fun so far, but I now get to balance out eating enough (I won't gain muscle and get stronger if I don't get enough) and eating too much (and gaining fat). I have no new pictures. Maybe soon I'll do a comparison shot and then post them next to my beginning pictures.
Oh, because my mission is not strength related I'm changing the name of my goal from Skinny Bitch to Warrior Princess.
Ok, David's birthday is tomorrow and this has not had nearly enough donations. I'll do a picspam if we get anywhere reasonably close to the goal.
I know money is tight for people. I really do understand. It's just that this is for a good cause in honour of a man who a lot of you claim to respect and care about. If that isn't a good reason to chip in £5, what else is? I know I've wandered in and out of fandom for awhile, but this is beyond anything like that.
I'm bringing out the velvet for now.
Click on this picture to give.
Today was my first day of trying keto (a really low carb diet, for those of you who don't know what it is). I admit it's not my ideal, and I have reservations, but some people have had a lot good luck with it. My only experiences previously were something called the Dukan diet, which was so low in carb that it was undoable. It was days of absolutely nothing but meat. It wasn't until you pass the first 2-7 days that you are allowed vegetables at all (and even then you rotate out protein days and protein+veg days)
But I digress, I'm doing a standard low carb diet this time. I've been just having a lot of problems with a standard calorie control diet. I'm finding it far too easy to drift. I know a low carb diet won't really magically fix that, but I figure it'll get my brain back into focus. My belief is it'll either work, or that it'll be enough motivation for me to get back into behaving well with my calorie counting diet.
My food choices today were delicious. I started off with a feta omelette and some bacon. For lunch, I had a large salad topped with chicken, more feta, olives, and dressing. Tea was very fancy and I had steak with mushroom sauce, broccoli, and more salad. I'm going to have a tiny bag of nuts as a snack.
My energy levels aren't so bad today. I fully admit I'm getting some sugary cravings, but that's probably a lot due to spending a lot of time binging recently. I'll see how I feel tomorrow.
Yes, I'm going to go from never posting to posting a lot. It's due to me having a modern computer again for me to abuse.
But anyway...I'm unlikely to do so, but I wish I were a better seamstress so I could make myself a Cersei Lannister cosplay. I don't know why. She's not my favourite character and I'd look ridiculous as a blonde. I think it's a combination of liking some of her outfits, understanding her issues with her brother being taught to fight when she wasn't, and some variety in my costumes. She does get to be a really good bitch and that's always fun. The screencaps I picked were from S02E02 (The Night Lands) but she may have also worn it in another episode. I'm honestly too lazy to check.( And here are more pictures and so I have a cut.Collapse )
Edit: Yes, I'm so bad at spelling as to claim to like a character and spell it wrong over and over again.
I'm very sorry for only sending this late notice, but the 3rd Annual David Tennant Birthday Drive is on. It is a fundraiser in honour of his birthday, with all of the funding going to Headway Essex. It's thus far been far too quiet, and so any amount given will be appreciated and almost worshiped. No amount is too small. Display the power of fangirls (and fanboys) for good!
Click on this picture to give.
(I will be posting these a lot until I reach at least £100 in donations)
I know I haven't posted in awhile, but I had to report my good news. I have a brand new shiny MacBook Pro. Getting it will make my term money tight, but I did request extra money in loans just so I could get it. It has no name yet.
Oh, and my paid account expired. I'm pondering if I want to bother to pay again. I may if I post again now that I have a modern computer of my own again.
I have six userpics now... that's weird.
I've had a lot going on recently and the poor people of Twitter have had to hear a lot of it as it goes on but I do have good news.
After searching for what felt like much too long, I had an interview that went well. I'm having a test shift at Starbucks to see how it goes. This will be my first time working at a proper corporate Starbucks and I'm looking forward to it.
And here's where I'm curious. I've noticed that mentioning it has had people tell me their favourite drinks. So... what do all of the few people who are reading this actually drink? (from Starbucks, or anywhere else that allows for custom drinks)
(also posted on my Tumblr)
...and it has only a small part to do with who is or isn't the Doctor. I fully admit to be a rather opinionated David Tennant fangirl. I also admit that for the ease of discussion on low text social media sites like Twitter, I'll frequently simplify the issue to missing My Doctor and leave out the greater other issues.
I would say that Series 1-(specials) is a different show than Series 5 and on, but it's more to do with an exchange of almost the total cast, production team, writing staff, and everyone all the way up to the top. Of the non-Doctor characters who are not simply referred to, what we have left is River Song (who did only appear in a single two part episode). But hasn't this happened before? Of course. I never meant to suggest that Doctor Who can be broken up into 1st-10th Doctors and then 11 standing off there by himself. It has changed many times before, and will continue to do so. Like Matt Barber who made an argument that Doctor Who isn't a single series
, I feel it's foolish to just look at the thing as a whole and expect it to make sense. While I don't agree on all of his divisions, the concept stands. This also means that I feel free to judge each portion of it on its own merits. As much as I like most eras, I also wouldn't freely exchange watching one era for another when I have a craving for one in particular.
Like a band who changes enough members, at a certain point it feels like another band. The band can use the same name, but things change. It's just easier to point this out when the front changes than when a manager or the lighting guys change. They're all important, but most aren't the public image of a group.
This of course leads me to discuss the issue I've heard with people saying that people didn't get particularly upset when Christopher Eccleston left. There are honestly a few reasons for this. I know I didn't actually start to watch the new series until after his era. Going in when I knew someone only had one year made me a little reluctant to do any major bonding. It was sad, but bittersweet. He changed, but the rest of the cast, tone, sets, and story moved on otherwise the same. It was noted that he changed, but Rose was still there, in the the TARDIS that remained exactly as it was. It was one guy that changed. Compare this to when Tennant left and we're reminded to dwell on the change as, everyone he knows is left to go on elsewhere and his TARDIS looks drastically by the end of Smith's first full episode. Even when Tom Baker (another long term favourite) left, most of the major productions change happened the series before he regenerated... and his companions were kept along until the next series for the next Doctor.
This is all very rambling, but what I meant to get at is that when a lot of us say it's a different show we don't mean it's strictly because of a switch in Doctor. It was a major change with a lot of people leaving and a lot of new ones coming in all at the same time. When we're lazy, or if we're feeling particularly emotional, it becomes easier to point to the one person who represented it all in our minds... but it's not just about David Tennant. (of all the phrases in here, I expect that one to be contradicted the most)
I have my hippie roots, both in my general left-leaning demeanor and a tone honed by living in the very liberal university town of Eugene, Oregon, USA. Because of this sort of past, I was always told the following thing: get involved as often as you can. So when I found out Occupy Glasgow had set up in town, I had to get myself involved.
Occupy Glasgow, a local branch of the Occupy movement that started with Occupy Wallstreet and spread out across much of the world from there, is camping in George Square to spread the message. Like most of the political events I've attended, there is a bit of a disorganised feel to the whole place. Between the tents and laid-back atmosphere, it can almost superficially feel like a very quiet festival. Don't let that fool you though. These people want to change the world.
This is a movement that's hard to pinpoint. People notice the continually increasing discrepancy between the few super rich and the rest. This gap in the UK isn't as large as it is in other places in the world (as far as I know), but the awareness is here. One person I know argued that these protesters are lazy, but I firmly disagree. Leaving your house to make a public show of getting behind a cause is hard. How else is lasting major change to happen if not for this type of action?
Some days have been incredibly busy, as the major rally on the 22nd had upwards of 500 people. Even if not all are involved again, it shows the draw of this sort of event.
The crowd tonight is small, but that is to be expected on a chilly night in Scotland. Those who remain are dedicated and in high energy. There is a selection of political discussions going on around and everyone is staying active. Even at 10pm and later, new people arrive on a somewhat regular basis. Some join many of the discussions going on, or start new ones and some are merely curious and are provided with information (which is admittedly sparse). The advantage and disadvantage of such movements is the unwillingness to have a single voice. It's instead a collection of voices all within a generally singular cause.
Even the most cynical should be able to appreciate the advantage of having a crowd of politically motivated people together. Even if they don't accomplish all they want, change will be made if they can stick to it. And this will all be a very interesting note in history.
There are many ways to contact Occupy Glasgow of you wish to get involved. They reside at George Square and have several events coming up. Every day at 6:30 is a General Assembly.
Originally posted by gabrielleabelle
at Mississippi Personhood Amendment
Okay, so I don't usually do this, but this is an issue near and dear to me and this is getting
no attention in the mainstream media.
Mississippi is voting on November 8th on whether to pass Amendment 26, the "Personhood Amendment". This amendment would grant fertilized eggs and fetuses personhood status.
Putting aside the contentious issue of abortion, this would effectively outlaw birth control and criminalize women who have miscarriages. This is not a good thing. Jackson Women's Health Organization
is the only place women can get abortions in the entire
state, and they are trying to launch a grassroots movement against this amendment. This doesn't just apply to Mississippi, though, as Personhood USA, the group that introduced this amendment, is trying to introduce identical amendments in all 50 states
What's more, in Mississippi, this amendment is expected to pass. It even has Mississippi Democrats, including the Attorney General, Jim Hood, backing it.
The reason I'm posting this here is because I made a meager donation to the Jackson Women's Health Organization this morning, and I received a personal email back hours later - on a Sunday - thanking me and noting that I'm one of the first "outside" people to contribute.
So if you sometimes pass on political action because you figure that enough other people will do something to make a difference, make an exception on this one. My RSS reader is near silent on this amendment. I only found out about it through a feminist blog. The mainstream media is not reporting on it.
If there is ever a time to donate or send a letter in protest, this would be it.
What to do?
- Read up on it. Wake Up, Mississippi
is the home of the grassroots effort to fight this amendment. Daily Kos
also has a thorough story on it.
- If you can afford it, you can donate at the site's link.
- You can contact the Democratic National Committee
to see why more of our representatives aren't speaking out against this.
- Like this Facebook page
to help spread awareness.
I'm posting this from the university wifi outside a building with my phone.
1. My home Internet/TV plan was cancelled (badly timed planning)
2. My phone is restricted until I pay.
3. Starbucks Internet was not working.
4. I can't get into the university library anymore (no longer an active student) and the public library is closed.
5. My wonky screen is opting not to work.
Oh, and I'm going to miss Doctor Who tonight because even freeview isn't working. I don't even know when I'm going to get a chance to get somewhere with iplayer enabled computers. Not that I have enough Internet access to be spoiled, but I'm sure I'll pick up enough.
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I either need to borrow or be sent a retail copy (well... you know what I mean) of MacOSX 10.5 (also known as Leopard). It's the newest one my current computer will run and I'm really limited in my software choices due to only running 10.3 right now. I may not have hardware upgrading budget but a software upgrade would really help.
(and a ram upgrade would also be nice, but only if anyone has the proper type of RAM just sitting around)
As of earlier this week, my dissertation has been turned in and now I can prepare to graduate with my MLitt in Medieval Scottish Studies. I'm still sort of nervous, but I'm done my Masters work.
I has two dates with a perfectly nice man, but I just didn't really feel it. He texts a bit too much and I didn't feel a real spark. I don't look forward to telling him because he is nice.
Oh and I'm looking for employment. I need to find it pretty much right now. I'll be optimistic about it, but I admit it's stressful. I've applied for barista jobs. If I can get one, I'll be on track for my PhD and continuing to live in Scotland plans.
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It's been really long since my last update and so I want to get the whole update out there. I'm really hoping it interests a few of you enough to read it.
Let me think. I am staying in my place alone for right now. Poor cindy_lou_who8
had to go back to Boston. I feel really bad for her not getting her loans, but I admit I do like having the space. I also admit that I'm not sure how to keep affording things but I'm clever and will figure something out.
My paper was due on the 1st. I'm on a sort of extension. I should be done in the next few days and get it in by the 7th or so. It's still scary, but I'm going to get it done. Same with my PhD application and my job search. Oh, I also get to do that.
I do have some more news though. I'm making and selling sonic screwdriver earrings.
£10 per pair, plus postage. Interested people should contact me :D
Oh, and it's just over a week until my 26 mile walk for ovarian cancer research and I still need sponsors.
A lot is up in the air right now, but I'm working on staying optimistic. It's all I can do.
So, I got an email back from a potential supervisor who seems interested in my research ideas. I just need to apply now and I'm feeling optimistic.
Now the hard part: I need to figure out a way to survive in the UK between handing in my dissertation and starting my PhD. I will probably have a sofa to sleep on for awhile, but if I don't start my PhD until January I will likely need something else. I just need advice on work and/or a place to stay that won't cost me a lot. Once I get a job I can pay, but that won't happen immediately. I'm a hard worker (ok, I have my lazy moments, but if I'm at a job it's different than just having a long away deadline), pick up skills pretty easily, and will do almost any sort of work. Advice?
I'll admit that I'm going through stress and that I sometimes lose my cool because of it. I will allow myself to wallow a bit in some self-pity and talk about how I'm worried I'll never do anything right. And then I calm down, move on, and try again. Sometimes I've needed help, which I've usually gotten when it's been most needed. I've been very grateful for every time someone has noticed I've needed help and offered. I see the bumps I hit in the road as things that I can get through with perseverance, luck, and some help.
And perhaps this is where my problem lies. I assume that what people really want is a nudge during rough times. Because I've needed help before and know how vital it is to help people who seem to need it for then. I think they'll get that help or the opportunity to do something better and to then use that as a jumping off point to do things they couldn't do without the nudge. This was clearly naive on my part and I'm really learning exactly how naive.
I can't really feel angry about it, but some people just really define themselves by their troubles rather than their victories. They don't want a nudge to get going on a path, they want to be taken the entire way kicking and screaming and then wonder why no one helps (and complains about every bump along the way). At a certain point, you realise you can't help someone who is set on defining the whole thing as a failure.
I'm going to go back to my work now though. It's rough, but I'll get through it. It may not be perfect, but it'll get done.
I really hate to complain. I don't mind the occasional bits of it, but I really hate when it drags on and so I really hate how I feel right now.
You see, last Tuesday I went in to talk to my professor about my paper and... it was just apparently all wrong. Sounds easy to just rewrite with what she told me to do but it's like my brain froze. I couldn't work for days. I'd just try and try and nothing comes out. I'm still having the problem. If it wasn't right before because it's too reliant on secondary sources... well, I don't have many more primary sources to emphasise. I'm just worried I'm not good enough at any of this. I just feel like I look at it and nothing comes out. I'm afraid the next draft will just be worse. I'm supposed to get something to my professor in a few days and I now have under 2k words and they're most all the words I thought I could use from my old draft.
This is all due in under a month and it's like my brain shut down. I just keep being told that it'll work out, but I'm really stressed about it and I need something else. Yes, I'm goofing off a bit but I don't know what to do. I have a vague outline and it does nothing. Seriously nothing.
I have a lot of work to do but I also notice I haven't posted anything in quite awhile (and have read my friend's list even less... sorry) and so feel the need to post something quick to sort of update what's going on. If nothing else, I hate when I look through my really old entries and have whole periods of my life that I've skipped over.
And I'll focus more on the negative, although it's honestly not really that bad. It's just easier to focus on right now.
I finally got to go into Edinburgh Castle! The travel did rejuvenate me a bit.
Cindy has handed in her dissertation and gets to rest.
I do have a possible supervisor for next year. I just need to apply.
I was able to get emergency funding to get me through this next month.
My professor didn't like the draft of my paper I handed in about a week ago and told me to basically re-write (causing me to basically freeze and only going back to working today)
I'm slowly gaining weight. I didn't think I was... but I'm past variations due to being salt. I'm stressed enough with the paper to just eat whatever comes in front of my face.
I need to upgrade my PowerBook to MacOSX 10.5 to run more modern software but it's giving me issues (now DVDs won't burn without failing... this is more odd than distressing)
I know there's more but I seem to forget it all the moment I start to try to blog. Now back to my dissertation.
I will start with good news. Over the week, I've been watching one Harry Potter film per day at Cineworld in preparation for the midnight release of Deathly Hallows Part 2. The films have always had their flaws, but it was really fun to watch them on a large screen and with a bunch of fans. Yesterday was especially busy though, as I saw both Part 1 again and then saw Part 2.
Without getting into much about Part 2, it had flaws but it was a lot more fun than I had hoped. The highlight moments were mostly done well. Yes, the stuff with Neville, Mrs. Weasley, and Snape's story actually were all there properly.
Picky bit: Apparently it's film canon that Cho is in Harry's year though, and not just a flaw in Order of the Phoenix. I know she was in the book, but she came back, as opposed to just being in school still (yup, in the uniform and everything). Did they not want to get into Harry dating someone a year older than him? (even by flat out lying about it rather by omission) Yes, it's a silly thing, but I'm a nerd and it's what I do. It's like with Goblet of Fire and Hermione's film pink dress. Not a big plot point, but it's something specified and strange to change.
Now for the bad, which I probably used the film bickering as an excuse to not write. For months now, I've been wanting to turn in my PhD application, but my supervisor told me I still had time and not to worry. Feeling a bit stressed anyway, I gave her my planned outline a few weeks ago so I could apply and feel comfortable. Then I get an email where she seems to have suddenly realised that my plans are indeed food history and that she's not comfortable with her level of food history to be my supervisor. Now what?! It's late July, I don't have an application in, and deadlines are pretty much now. I can't go back! I can't just give up now... but now I need to find a food historian somewhere, apply, and hope I can get in. It's a nightmare, and I'm stressed. I've been clear since the beginning that food was my interest, and wrote about it on both my first specialism and am doing my dissertation on a related topic. And now this? Don't tell me to not worry and then give me something to worry about at the last moment :(
Ever just been in a mood where all you wanted to do for a variety of reasons is to just not deal with anyone and let energy out? Yeah, I'm in one of them. I've been working hard to not let a constant barrage of "It's all miserable and nothing goes right." get to me, but it eventually builds up and emotionally drains me. And then I let stupid things get on my nerves and say worse things than I should.
I'm just going to sit alone at my keyboard for two hours and just focus on my work. Maybe I'll feel better when I have some progress, don't have to deal with the bickering and squee on Twitter about Torchwood (which I admit I was adding to :/), and am away from the very self-fulfilling phrase "nothing ever goes right."
Ok, time to breathe and get down to work.
Once again, it's been many days.
My PhD application is submitted, although not fully. I still need to get my recommendations (which I have lined up, I just need to email) and get in my research proposal (waiting for feedback on it), and mail in one of my old papers. It's all good though.
Not nearly as cool as Much Ado About Nothing stuff, but it's ultimately more important to me.
My stolen stuff has never been recovered, but I was able to (with help) get a computer to let me do my dissertation at home.
It's an 8 year old PowerBook G4 with loose hinges and an external monitor with a broken stand and I'm very happy with it. :D
I called it Type 40 (ancient when I bought it, sort of will require tinkering to keep it going), and celebrated it with TARDIS interior wallpapers.
And here's a picture
Isn't she so cute
I figure it this way. I was really into keeping on top of what Apple was releasing when both of these were new and I probably had a major squee over them when the first came out. And I wanted them both so badly then. Why shouldn't I be as excited to get them almost a decade later?
I found a laptop to replace the ones that were stolen. It was actually only due to the kindness of the fantastic fortisgreen
who was nice enough to offer to send a laptop, and then offered ebay help when there was an incident with that one.
I'm doing a bit better on my eating plan. As in I'm feeling more energetic than I had been before and I'm not constantly hungry.
Back to my dissertation work now.
Cindy has decided to try the Dukan Diet
and I'm being a good friend by joining her. And I like the idea of trying something new.
It is a four stage diet, which I'll explain as I go along. What I liked was that it was pretty simple and I liked that they told me to make my goal either 155-157lbs instead of 150lbs. I'm all ok with my goal going up. I also liked that the getting to the goal weight is only half of the diet. I reach my goal weight and then spend the last 2 stages easing myself back into normal human eating.
Phase 1 is called the Attack Phase and it's some sort of super protein stage. It's supposed to be 5-10 days for most people but it's only two for me, I'm supposing due to needing to lose only about 20lbs. I'd honestly think I'd like the idea of being on pretty much pure protein for this time... and it's been a nightmare. I love the taste of the food but I can't seem to get satiated on it. I eat eggs, steak, and other things I could just keep eating. I started yesterday and did ok, but I was just dreadful today until I had my daily allowed allotment of oat bran. Within minutes of having the oat bran, I felt so much better. Lesson: carbs are good.
The good news: I'm on track for my starting phase weight loss. I'm just so glad I only have to do this for two days. I get to eat vegetables again starting tomorrow!
And here's an obnoxious weight ticker
Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter
I swear I'm doing this for science.
I'm doing a 5k run/walk (I know I can't make it all of the way running!) and am still looking for sponsors. Cindy and I are both doing it and working together on a team. It's for breast cancer research and... I'm waking up early and jogging for it.
I don't care how little or much you give, I'd appreciate any of it. I get to gather stuff to donate tonight to try to help in that way.Please sponsor me